Lukas Allen
Fictitious bipolar trauma, Bipolar Feelings in the rain.
1.
I was walking home in the rain. It was such a great night.
The best night.
The greatest night of my life.
The best night ever.
I started running, with a smile on my face.
I started running, like some idiotic fool in the rain.
I whooped in glee.
I roared in triumph!
I met her.
And I knew she’d be my wife, one day.
My true love.
I knew it.
And I couldn’t stop this great feeling!
Like a downpour in my heart, in my head, in my body.
As the rain falls.
A cop looks at me from his car, slows down past me.
I smile a big hearted smile at him.
He drives off. Good for him.
I walk a bit.
I go through the forest path.
It’s a nice night, I knew the way.
The lamps showed the way through the forest.
I sat on a wet bench, laughing to myself for a while.
I smoked a cigarette in the rain, protecting the cig from the wetness falling down.
I walk down the path, puffing and puffing, huffing and huffing.
I walk down the path, and smoke my cig.
I get out of the rainy night forest.
And my home is just down the street.
I notice the many little houses.
If only they knew my victory tonight.
I met her.
And she would be mine.
I walked into my house, unlocking the door.
2.
I was walking home in the rain. It was such a great night. The rain pitter pattered around me, as I could see every single beautiful color in existence.
It was the best night.
The greatest night of my life.
The best night ever.
I started running, with a smile on my face.
I felt like my heart was going to explode, I was so happy.
I started running, like some idiotic fool in the rain.
I whooped in glee.
I roared in triumph!
Like a lion!
I met her.
And I knew she’d be my wife, one day.
I knew this more than any truth I’d ever known.
My true love.
I knew it.
And I couldn’t stop this great feeling!
It was like a train, going a thousand miles an hour, rushing past me, destroying all in its path!
Like a downpour in my heart, in my head, in my body.
As the rain falls.
The colors were so beautiful.
A cop looks at me from his car, slows down past me.
I smile a big hearted smile at him.
He rolls down his window.
And nods at me.
He drives off. Good for him.
I walk a bit.
I go through the forest path.
It’s kind of dark.
It’s a nice night, I knew the way.
The lamps showed the way through the forest.
I sat on a wet bench, laughing to myself for a while.
I couldn’t stop this crazy, awesome laugh. I felt like the forest was laughing with me!
I smoked a cigarette in the rain, protecting the cig from the wetness falling down.
I walk down the path, puffing and puffing, huffing and huffing.
Like a big bad wolf, on his cigarette puff.
I walk down the path, and smoke my cig.
I get out of the rainy night forest.
Finally. The light.
And my home is just down the street.
I notice the many little houses.
Like anthills.
If only they knew my victory tonight.
I met her.
And she would be mine.
I walked into my house, fumbling with my keys, and unlocking the door.
3.
I was walking home in the rain. It was such a great night. The rain pitter pattered around me, as I could see every single beautiful color in existence. It was like looking through a kaleidoscope of color. I was listening to my music in the rain, coming from my mp3 player.
Lucy in the skyyy with diamonds…
It was the best night.
The greatest night of my life.
The best night ever.
Better than any night anyone has ever had.
I started running, with a smile on my face.
Grinning like some lunatic from an asylum.
My smile hurt I felt so happy!
I felt like my heart was going to explode, I was so happy.
I started running, like some idiotic fool in the rain.
I whooped in glee.
I cackled in delight.
I roared in triumph!
Like a lion!
Howling in the rain, like a wolf!
I met her.
And I knew she’d be my wife, one day.
I knew this more than any truth I’d ever known.
My true love.
I knew it.
It was fated to be.
And I couldn’t stop this great feeling!
It was like a train, going a thousand miles an hour, rushing past me, destroying all in its path!
It was like a plane, I felt so high, faster than a jet!
Like a dam exploding, bursting and flooding all.
Like a downpour in my heart, in my head, in my body.
As the rain falls.
The colors were so beautiful.
Like a kaleidoscope of color…
Every little droplet, casting rainbows in my eyes…
So vivid… like the trails.
A cop looks at me from his car, slows down past me.
I smile a big hearted smile at him.
He rolls down his window.
He asks me if I’m ok.
I nod to him.
And he nods at me.
He drives off. Good for him. I bet he knew how great my life was going to be.
I walk a bit.
I go through the forest path.
It’s kind of dark.
I hope I didn’t meet anyone here.
It’s a nice night though, I knew the way.
The lamps showed the way through the forest.
Most of them flickered and were off.
But I could still see the way.
I sat on a wet bench, laughing to myself for a while.
I couldn’t stop this crazy, awesome laugh. I felt like the forest was laughing with me!
I thought I heard someone laugh down the path.
I nervously say, “Hello?”
No one answers.
I smoked a cigarette in the rain, protecting the cig from the wetness falling down.
I walk down the path, puffing and puffing, huffing and huffing.
Like a big bad wolf, on his cigarette puff.
I walk down the path, and smoke my cig.
I get out of the rainy night forest.
Finally. The light. The last bit of lamps were off.
And my home is just down the street.
I notice the many little houses.
Like anthills.
Like haunted houses.
If only they knew my victory tonight.
The ants would dance with ghosts in happiness.
I met her.
And she would be mine.
I walked into my house, fumbling with my keys, dropping them, but picking them back up, and unlocking the door.
4.
I was walking home in the rain. It was such a great night. The rain pitter pattered around me, as I could see every single beautiful color in existence. It was like looking through a kaleidoscope of color. I was listening to my music in the rain, coming from my mp3 player.
Lucy in the skyyy with diamonds…
I love you, Lucy.
I love you so much.
It was the best night.
Lucy was so pretty.
The greatest night of my life.
The best night ever.
Better than any night anyone has ever had.
Best night in existence.
With Lucy.
I started running, with a smile on my face.
Grinning like some lunatic from an asylum.
Did I escape from one?
No, that was years ago.
The asylum… haha… What a horrible place.
My smile hurt I felt so happy!
I felt like my heart was going to explode, I was so happy.
I started running, like some idiotic fool in the rain.
I whooped in glee.
I cackled in delight.
I roared in triumph!
Like a lion!
Howling in the rain, like a wolf!
Shivering in the rain.
I met her.
Lucy.
And I knew she’d be my wife, one day.
I knew this more than any truth I’d ever known.
My true love.
My lovely Lucy.
I knew it.
It was fated to be.
Prophets prophesied this day.
Our children would be kings and queens.
As Lucy and I rule over the land.
And I couldn’t stop this great feeling!
It was like a train, going a thousand miles an hour, rushing past me, destroying all in its path!
It was like a plane, I felt so high, faster than a jet!
Like a dam exploding, bursting and flooding all.
Like a downpour in my heart, in my head, in my body.
As the rain falls.
The colors were so beautiful.
Like a kaleidoscope of color…
Every little droplet, casting rainbows in my eyes…
So vivid… like the trails.
Like the hallucinations I’m seeing…
I knew they were hallucinations. Didn’t mean they weren’t still fun!
A cop looks at me from his car, slows down past me.
I smile a big hearted smile at him.
He rolls down his window.
He asks me if I’m ok.
He asks me if I’m high.
I shake my head.
He pauses.
Says, “Get out of here, kid. You’re too young. Go.”
And he nods at me.
He drives off. Good for him. I bet he knew how great my life was going to be.
He probably knew I was high.
He could’ve arrested me.
He could’ve taken me to jail.
I walk a bit.
I go through the forest path.
It’s kind of dark.
Very dark, like eyes are watching me from the shadows.
I felt like it was following me.
Whatever I saw before.
The monster.
The big one.
THE SCARY ONE.
I hope I could escape it.
I hope I didn’t meet anyone here.
I hope I didn’t meet it.
It’s a nice night though, I knew the way.
The lamps showed the way through the forest.
Most of them flickered and were off.
But I could still see the way.
Because my pupils were so enlarged.
I sat on a wet bench, laughing to myself for a while.
Laughing very nervously.
I couldn’t stop this crazy, nervous laugh. I felt like the forest was laughing at me!
I thought I heard someone laugh down the path.
I nervously say, “Hello?”
“Hello.” someone says back.
I stare down the path.
I’m scared.
I try to continue smoking.
I have to relight it a few times.
I smoked a cigarette in the rain, protecting the cig from the wetness falling down.
I feel like whoever it was went away.
I walk down the path, puffing and puffing, huffing and huffing.
Like a big bad wolf, on his cigarette puff.
But I feel like a scared little pig.
I walk down the path, and smoke my cig.
I get out of the rainy night forest.
Finally. The light. The last bit of lamps were off.
I break out running again.
And my home is just down the street.
I notice the many little houses.
Like anthills.
Like haunted houses.
Like crypts.
If only they knew my victory tonight.
The ants would dance with ghosts in happiness.
And the dead would rise from their tombs.
I met her.
LUCY.
And she would be mine.
I walked into my house, fumbling with my keys, dropping them, but picking them back up.
This was the wrong key.
I try another one.
It’s the wrong key.
I try another one.
I laugh nervously.
And unlock the door.
5.
I was walking home in the rain. It was such a terrible night. I couldn’t make heads or tails of what I was seeing. The LSD was making me trip too hard.
The rain pitter pattered around me, as I could see every single beautiful color in existence. It was like looking through a kaleidoscope of color. I was listening to my music in the rain, coming from my mp3 player.
Lucy in the skyyy with diamonds…
I love you, Lucy.
I love you too much.
Lucy was so pretty.
Lucy.
I started running, with a smile on my face.
Grinning like some lunatic from an asylum.
Did I escape from one?
No, that was years ago.
The asylum… haha… What a horrible place.
My smile hurt!
Why couldn’t I STOP SMILING?
I felt like my heart was going to explode.
I started running, like some idiotic fool in the rain.
Shivering in the rain.
I met her.
Lucy.
And I knew she’d be my wife, one day.
I knew this more than any truth I’d ever known.
My true love.
My lovely Lucy.
I knew it.
It had to be.
My head felt like it would burst, exploding with my heart.
It was like a train, going a thousand miles an hour, rushing past me, destroying all in its path!
It was like a plane, I felt so high, faster than a jet!
Like a dam exploding, bursting and flooding all.
Like dying.
Like a downpour in my heart, in my head, in my body.
As the rain falls.
The colors were so beautiful.
Like a kaleidoscope of color…
Every little droplet, casting rainbows in my eyes…
So vivid… like the trails.
Like the hallucinations I’m seeing…
I knew they were hallucinations.
I couldn’t stop the hallucinations.
A cop looks at me from his car, slows down past me.
I smile.
He rolls down his window.
He asks me if I’m ok.
He asks me if I’m high.
I shake my head.
My heart is beating so fast.
He pauses.
Says, “Get out of here, kid.”
And he scowls at me.
He drives off.
He probably knew I was high.
He could’ve arrested me.
He could’ve taken me to jail.
He could’ve killed me.
I walk a bit.
I go through the forest path.
It’s very dark.
Very dark.
Only the abyss.
I felt like it was following me.
Whatever I saw before.
THE SCARY ONE.
I hope I could escape it.
I hope I didn’t meet anyone here.
It’s a nice night though, I knew the way.
The lamps showed the way through the forest.
Most of them were off.
But I could still see the way.
Because my pupils were so enlarged.
I sat on a wet bench, laughing to myself for a while.
Laughing very nervously.
I couldn’t stop this crazy, nervous laugh.
I felt like I was so alone.
I thought I heard someone laugh down the path.
I nervously say, “Hello?”
“I’m going to kill you.” someone says back.
I stare down the path.
W-Was it just a hallucination??
I’m scared.
Terrified.
I try to continue smoking.
I have to relight it a few times.
I smoked a cigarette in the rain, protecting the cig from the wetness falling down.
I feel like whoever is there is waiting for me.
I walk down the path, puffing and puffing, huffing and huffing.
Like a big bad wolf, on his cigarette puff.
But I feel like a scared little pig.
I run down the path, and smoke my cig.
I get out of the rainy night forest.
Finally. The light.
I run more.
It’s just down the street.
I notice the many little houses.
Like anthills.
Like haunted houses.
Like crypts.
If only they knew.
The ants would dance with ghosts in happiness.
And the dead would rise from their tombs.
I met her.
LUCY.
And she would be mine.
This has to be her house.